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| 2010-07-01 19:10:10 CST - drunkness_of(0) | I was thinking today about how passive and peaceful human beings really are, it's amazing when you think about it. A normal predator is going to kill something every few days. Not only that, but it will kill it's own kind over territory, mates, and sometimes just completely for the fuck of it.
I realized at some point here recently that when you have that funny passing thought about kicking the guy next to you until he just stops moving, that it's not just a passing though you kind of laugh at. That's your lizard brain. If your socially adjusted human brain wasn't in the way, what your lizard brain thinks would be what happens, and you'd be beating the guy next to you to a pulp for whatever it was that set you off. And not even just that, but every single time you don't do what your lizard brain tells you it drives up your general stress and social anxiety. All that stress you accumulate and you just don't get why it's there since your life is so laid back...that's it. The only way to be at peace is to follow the lizard brain's generally directives. I've been convinced through experience and observation that the failure to do so will eventually lead to the lizard brain cutting out the rest of you completely for some period of time.
My point I guess is that you've got three options: 1) Fight and fuck when the urge arises, 2) Keep yourself in a position where your lizard brain doesn't get the urge to kill douche bags with your bare hands, 3) be a miserable prick. Obviously these apply to a given situation only, meaning you've got some combination of the three overall. So there it is, the husk of a formula you can solve for just how much of a miserable prick you'd like to be. |
| 2010-01-29 15:26:10 CST - drunkness_of(0) | | I'm fucking miserable, I hurt when I eat and I haven't had a drink in weeks. The last few weeks and, to a lesser extent, the months leading up to it have involved me feeling somwhere between bad and blood-puke. I actually sharted blood one day which was so troubling to me I hadn't mentioned it to anyone until now. It's not really the sort of thing I would normally bring up in casual conversation, but in this instance I think it really brings home my point.
I finally found out what's wrong with me yesterday, they did an egd which involves taking some pictures of your digestive bits with a tube-camera. Turns out I've got a duedenal ulcer, along with some friends that are probably caused by it.
I was just incapacitated by a piece of chocolate.
That's really all I have to say about that right now. |
| 2009-12-18 21:49:20 CST - drunkness_of(3) | | My gut is just so full of beer, it's like a beer drum. Like a balloon, it's as if you could compress beer, and it was about to compress into a solid. I kinda wish I could poop beer, so I could just go back and start this whole night over with something a little more concentrated. |
| 2009-11-14 07:36:47 CST - drunkness_of(3) | | I woke up surrounded by taco bell wrappers. There is a guy sleeping on my couch, and i smell like urine. I have no fucking idea. Please call me if you have any idea what happened last night. |
| 2009-04-25 21:36:40 CST - drunkness_of(2) | | I just cracked some software, some actually fairly popular software, probably somewhere in the thousands of deployments. And I cracked it pretty good, no xss or some crap like that, I'm talking remote command execution. After I got it working i went through the trouble to clump it all into a shell script with a bunch of wget commands. Running that puppy and ~30 seconds later seeing that i'd gained control of the system...that's a feeling I can't properly describe, but I can tell you I won't forget for a quite a while. A ton of relief, because I'd been working this software over for quite a while, a huge amount of adrenaline, but also a strange sense of satisfaction and calm. It's like you're in awe, I just couldn't believe what i'd done, and it still seems completely amazing. It's just not something I think of me being able to do, I'm so new at it, I'm in the fucking class right now... Blows my goddamned mind. Anyway, all those feelings were followed in quick succession by the urge to drink, and heavily. There's nothing I like more than a reason to celebrate. Breaking shit is fucking awesome, way more fucking fun than fixing shit. |
| 2009-04-14 19:41:36 CST - drunkness_of(3) | | Mmmmmmargarita, so yeah, I've finally got tequilla back in the rotation. For good, i expect, which is awesome. I've got like vodka wednesday, tequilla tuesday, beer friday, irish cream saturday and whiskey everyday. Bliss. I started making margaritas from scratch, which i suppose i'll have to explain for my viewers from outside of the 'sconny. Here in ass-fuck nowhere a margarita comes from a big fuckin plastic bottle, probably says chi-chis on the font of it. Sucks asshole. So yeah, here's my margarita recipe: 2 oz chinaco anejo, a hair less than 1 oz cointreau, 3/4 oz lime juice, shake it over 4 ice cubes, pour it over 3 ice cubes, slam it. There, tequilla back in the rotation, SUCK THAT BITCHES, TEQUILLA. Or not, whatever, i don't give a fuck what you do, asshole. |
| 2009-04-07 20:50:06 CST - drunkness_of(4) | | ok, for those of you who might doubt, who's faith in my knowledge of drunkery might waiver, who think, hey, dan says he drinks a lot, but does he know what' the fuck eh's talking about. Yes, yes I do in fact know what the fuck i'm talking about, This post is for you, yes, yes i know what i'm talking about, yes i really do drink enough to justify a drunkometer on my my webpage, no, i don't usually drink enough to really get into it, yes, it happens regularly, yes, i listen to old school nin when it happens, and yes, the hangovers are to die for, any more questions BITCHES? |
| 2009-04-07 17:56:12 CST - drunkness_of(3) | | Today, kiddies, I'd like to talk to you about Jameson. Jameson makes some of the best whiskey you're likely to drink in your lives, and I'm not fucking around with you here. I know, I know, scotch is great, and it's got it's place. But if you throw back a few shots of middleton or jameson limited 18 you're going to know what i'm talking about. Shit is smooth, i mean SMOOTH, seriously. It's not like a scotch where you kind of sip it and soak in the peat moss flavor. The high end bottles of jameson are drinking whiskey, this ain't no sipping tea. You see how this makes it amazing right? Instead of buying a 120 dollar bottle of liquor that is some snobby sipping liquor, you buy some 120 bottle of liquor that is the most amazing swillin booze you've ever drank. You can take shots of this without any sticking in the throat, no appreciation of it's subtle flavor is required, just encouraged. And that's why I'm prepared to say something i've never said before: Jameson is my favorite whiskey. They just make such a good whiseky, and they price it at a level where you can get it for just a pinch more than the whiskey you probably were aiming to buy anyway. The 12 year jameson is really pretty silky on some ice and it's not that much for a bottle of it. The name label that I buy by the handle is pretty good but needs a chaser or something to cut the burn down a little, but you take a high end one, i'm drinking the limited 18 right now, and that shit is gold. No chaser, no mixer, no ice, just sling a few back. So yeah, jameson, tastey shit. End of transmission. |
| 2009-03-14 11:25:41 CST - drunkness_of(1) | | I'm leaving now for Ireland, with any luck the next time my bac hits .00 won't be until i'm back here in a week |
| 2009-02-27 17:04:21 CST - drunkness_of(2) | | DAN LOVES BEER, BEER LOVES EVERYONE |
| 2008-12-23 14:42:43 CST - drunkness_of(0) | | Oh, i felt something this morning smart-ass. |
| 2008-12-23 02:00:38 CST - drunkness_of(4) | | holy hell, it was a lot of work to get in here, all kinds of forgetful. The moral of the story, going 105 on the highways while drunk, just fine. Fun, in fact. Going 105 on a 35 surface street, maybe not the best idea. A 100mph 180 on smooth ice is actually not as much fun as it sounds like. I like having a breathalizer, .15 after driving an hour home and i still feel nothing. Someday i'll barf and at least i'll feel something for a few mintues, could be interesting. Note to zach's dad, i said 20, then 30, but actually 26 is pretty well dead on. |
| 2008-05-06 18:05:03 CST - drunkness_of(3) | There are several reasons for sitting around in your underwear and drinking, most of them are pretty depressing. However, 'just for the fuck of it' qualifies as particularly un-depressing, especially on a random tuesday afternoon.
I've taken to drinking vodka again lately. Vodka and I have had a long and complicated relationship. It was my first really, my first real drunkening agent. And I loved it. However, i got sick off of it, a lot, a shitload. A fucking shitload. I was young, weak, thin and sickly.
However, now I am old, experience, strong in the belly, and fat enough to take a good liquor buzz. After several years of avoiding the liquor entirely I got, somehow, to reading a site about russian drinking. Oh, I remember, it was a story on fark, russian guy gets stabbed in the back while drinking and doesn't realize it until his wife sees him some 20 hours later with a huge fucking knife sticking out of his back.
So I gets to thinking, how do russians seem to get so drunk and like it so much. Vodka. But it's not the drink, it's how you drink it. After reading up, straight down with a chaser. Beer or cola preferably. I like beer, a good strong hopped pilsner makes a great chaser, my staple is a tall shot of vodka, probably ~1.75-2 oz, followed by a swig of budvar, and a big bite of a good pickle. Fucking delicious.
Not only delicious, good for the body. Well, good compared to other booze I've drank. The worse I've got so far is barfing pickles out of my nose and falling asleep at like ten pm. Then I got up at like 4, took a shower, at some breakfast, and went to work. And I was ok, unhappy, a little green as it were, but ok.
I just drank a 3rd of a bottle of kettle one, and I loved it. Great, feel good. Wish it was friday or saturday so I could drink until true hangover status. I still love bourbon, don't get me wrong, america makes a great booze and I FUCKING LOVE IT. Just really happy to have vodka back in my rotation. I'm looking for some way to get tequila back in the arsenal, if anyone has a good brand/method feel free to let me know.
Wow, long post....Glad nobody but me reads this fucker. |
| 2008-03-12 03:30:07 CST - drunkness_of(3) | | Funny, I came here to say that all I wanted to do was drink and fuck, but it looks like i beat myself to it. Sneaky fucker is always one step ahead of me. |
| 2008-02-02 18:45:27 CST - drunkness_of(3) | | The fundamental problem is that all I wanna do is drink fuck and do drugs. If you'd all just leave me to it we'd be fine. Dicks. |
| 2008-01-22 20:40:17 CST - drunkness_of(3) | | I are am teh fucked. Yes, teh fucked. Slur type is nigh ine vitable. See, shit. I dunno what i been doing. I move dot shit depere. I'ts been ok. Wow. I really are teh drunk, i have to go to work tomorrow. Poor bastards are going ot pay me for that?! I probably have a review tomorrow too. Oh yeah, I work for cellcom now. Repete sucks balls. Cellcom is better, less balls suckage in general, but still balls uckag. that's not right. It's all going wrong. Close enough bye. |
| 2007-03-17 13:35:51 CST - drunkness_of(4) | | HAHAHAHA, bitches. Fuck you all in the assphincter. I'll be as drunked as i want on st. pattys day. What is that you ask? Am i Irish? Go fuck yourself. Dick. |
| 2006-08-15 18:15:27 CST - drunkness_of(0) | | GREAT HAIRY BALLS! Everybody makes fun of emacs being a little bloated, but I hit some fucking key combination and got a page that was how to say hello in different languages. I mean, seriously, where the fuck did that come from? |
| 2006-06-20 09:32:25 CST - drunkness_of(0) | I don't really have a lot to report, just kind of felt like it was time to check in. I've still got a 4.0 going at the end of 12 credits. I feel pretty good about that, but it's so much easier when you have even just a vauge intrest in the content you're covering. Work is going ok, they're still paying me and i think that's a valid stopping point.
It's just been a long period of lazy grey indifference, is what i'm getting at here. |
| 2006-05-25 21:31:25 CST - drunkness_of(2) | | I spent about 3 hours at the bar today, but I still made more on my investments today alone than I spent at the bar. That just makes my fucking day. That's like free bonus beer. |
| 2006-03-31 06:19:43 CST - drunkness_of(0) | | I think I'm ramping up to one of my full on dont-fucking-care moments. Normally I might be a little skeptical of a statement like that, but considering this revelation came to me while i was doing an e-brake slide down the street in front of my work, I'm willing to give it a little credit. At any rate, I'll try to let you know how it works out. |
| 2006-02-28 18:56:38 CST - drunkness_of(2) | | Sometimes I think my life is pointless. Then I realize: this rum doesn't drink itself! |
| 2006-02-01 21:11:30 CST - drunkness_of(2) | | I rarely pull stuff from my site after posting it. I am doing just that today. It's not that I said something really vile last night, it just wasn't quite the full truth. A lot of things I say here aren't quite true, but in a funnier way, in a "don't believe drunk me" sort of way. It might have been true, I'll have to think about it some more. |
| 2005-12-16 20:27:32 CST - drunkness_of(3) | It's good to be posting with a 3 again. I'm still a little disapointed in myself for never giving you a 7 or anything of that sort since the drunkometer came into being. You have to understand though, by the time I got to the point that I felt I needed a drunkometer I was already working through that phase, you see what I'm saying here?
Anyway, I went out and got a 40 of mickeys. Becca wanted to go next door to get some ice cream, and I was already a few shots in, so I figured it was the only reasonable thing to do.
Not really much else to report on. Just chillin out with a couple quarts of chocoalte ice cream and 1 dead 40 and a few drained burboun and sun drops at my side. Life is good. Couldn't ask for much more really. |
| 2005-12-05 12:31:59 CST - drunkness_of(0) | This sort of thing doesn't really matter to me all that much, to be honest. I've always tried to focus on what useful knowledge I am soaking in rather than dwell on how well my professors seem to think I'm learning the information they would like me to learn. I guess you could say I've got my own unique educational goals, and am not particularily bothered if those goals are not in sync with those an institution may have for me. You could also say I am a stubborn know-it-all who doesn't know what's best for him, I suppose. The decision you make most likely will never effect me, so have at it.
However, this image does bring me a sort of satisfaction.  |
| 2005-10-20 18:32:02 CST - drunkness_of(0) | | I'm realizing more and more that I am an unusual person in some way. I used to just write it off as an attribute of being high or drunk all the time. I'm not high or drunk anymore and it's still pretty much the same. Something fundamental doesn't mesh. What's worse is that I feel like I'm watching myself grow up from young wierd to full bore adult weird. Maybe I'm just being paranoid, but I think it's almost certain that they really are out to get me. I suppose it's the same for everyone with an identity, you are who you are, just try to keep your head low enough not to get fucked. |
| 2005-10-14 13:52:01 CST - drunkness_of(0) | | I thought I should post on the NIN concert last night in Madison. It was a fucking good concert. Me and the guy I went with were all talking about the songs we were hoping they'd play, and how unlikely it would be that they'd play them. All of those songs were played. They played piggy, reptile, eraser, they played fucking head like a hole, they played closer. Some of the best songs off the new albumn. The only thing that was a little dissapointing to me was that they played the new 'hit'. But the rest of the crowd seems to really like that song, so whatever. They even brought back the old school see through screen with b/w movies playing on it, backlighting the musicians a little so you could see them through it. Some new clips cut in there with some politically current content. All in all it was a lot of the good old stuff polished up with some of the good new stuff. Grade A high quality shit, I wouldn't have missed that show for much of anything. |
| 2005-10-06 21:10:46 CST - drunkness_of(3) | | Ahhhh. The fall booze crop is coming in nicely. The cider is just, wow, it's just incredibly good. So smooth and spicy and clean tasting. It doesn't even taste boozy, despite the fact it's pretty fucking strong. The beer is...ok. It's good I guess, better than your default cheap beers by a long shot. It needs some work is all i'm saying. Put it this way, when I make cider next year I'm not going to fuck with the recipe, but when I start on the next crop of beer I'm going to tweak some things. I'm surely not dumping the rest of the beer down the drain though, it's drinkin time for sure- |
| 2005-09-23 21:20:18 CST - drunkness_of(3) | | I'm doing good here in milwuakee, I'm soused, thriving one might say. My job just pretty much kept getting more and more fun. I pretty much hit critical mass a few days ago and just quit asking questions all the time. A few, here and there, maybe. Maybe one or two per day. It just sort of clicked in. Oh lord I love scotch. I should have a longer more detailed booze update sometime later next week. God I love booze. (Goes to check on this years fall booze crop) Have a nice night. |
| 2005-08-18 11:54:41 CST - drunkness_of(0) | I'm kind of between tasks at my new job. It seems pretty cool so far but I'm just barely getting started. I'm getting reasonably confident with the ladder logic system now though. Well, the base of it is pretty simple, it's a lot like assembly except displayed as circuits. What took a little longer was the figuring out what the standards for the place were, so I didn't put a line somewhere stupid.
Everything else remains pretty constant. Still no broadband because our cable is apparently hanging cut in the wall somewhere. I ordered a phone line though, with any luck at all I'll get me some dsl before the end of next week. Then the cable bastards can do thier thing at thier whenever and I won't care much. Don't watch a lot of tv anyway.
I got on the payment plan for school. That's important I suppose, as I have no money. Maybe, just MAYBE, I will have enough to pay for the first payment. What can I say, haven't been working long and a lot has been coming up.
Time to get back to simulating my mill- |
| 2005-07-28 15:22:08 CST - drunkness_of(0) | God I can't wait for this to be a '2' night at least. After a day of working my ass off on crappy vb and sql I thought this button in my taskbar was just too funny to ignore. Somehow it already seems to have lost it's charm, but once I'm devoted to something I like to see it through. Here you go-
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| 2005-07-26 08:01:15 CST - drunkness_of(0) | I had an interesting thought this morning while I was shaving, so I thought I would share. I threw away a razor blade, and put a new one on. In doing so I realized that everything that is made, is made to serve a purpose. Further, the purpose that the thing serves is the very thing that eventually leads to it no longer being usefull. Like the razor, the razor is used to shave, shaving makes the razor dull, and the dull razor is no longer usefull. It followed then that if god had created us, and we are hear working and aging, that the act of being worn out in itself is the most probable purpose of a human. That razor could have spent its whole life wondering what it was there for, it could have been a philosopher, artist, whatever. But I didn't care, it's sole purpose to me was to be worn thin and thrown away.
On that note, a lot of people think my ideas are a little pessemistic. I don't see it that way. I see the fact that nothing really matters more like an unimaginable freedom than a lack of purpose. |
| 2005-07-17 18:53:50 CST - drunkness_of(0) | | Things are going well here so far. I've got a job, and I got into grad school one of the places I really wanted to. I've been drinking sprecher 'special amber', good stuff. Not really a lot to comment on, i've been really pretty busy. |
| 2005-07-04 22:32:59 CST - drunkness_of(2) | | I've got a pretty good buzz going on so i felt as if i should post. I wouldn't say I'm drunk necissarily, although I am slurring my typing slightly, but able to correct for it mostly. Right on the edge, this is a 2.500000 post. See, i've been drinking wine, san garia actually. Good shit, but i'm not sure I could get drunk on it if I had to, i sure did try though. Now i'm just tired, lazy, and full of wine. Which is roughly like really having to fart, but more liquidy. Damn impotent wine. What is that shit, like 2.5% alchohol? I drank all fucking night and all i have to claim for it is a full belly. Damn spanish bastards, I suddenly have a strong sense of patriotism for bourbon country, which i was recently through(and thouroughly enjoyed) as well as the scottish countryside that I have never seen. At least they know how to make a good drink. Spanish people suck ass, san garia my ass! |
| 2005-06-25 09:59:35 CST - drunkness_of(0) | | I find that I have lost the will to blog. I had intended to write some crap about my trip to Knoxville(sp?), but i just don't care to do that. I'm not sure why I got so anti-social all of the sudden, maybe just the sudden lack of being forced to be around other people with not having a job or being in school anymore. Anyway, I would expect any updates here for a while. Maybe if I start drinking again I'll come post some witty banter. Talk to you after my holiday from humanity. |
| 2005-06-03 06:37:56 CST - drunkness_of(1) | | Today I have to go to school for the last time ever for my bachelors degree. What I have to do today is nothing. I have nothing to hand in, nothing to do, nothing to work on. What I need to do is show up and get my points for being alive and on time. I think that is a particularily fitting way to end this 5 year adventure in boredom. I think it symbolizes perfectly the greater educational experience. Then, after that, I'm going out to get beyond drunk. |
| 2005-05-21 22:11:35 CST - drunkness_of(0) | | I don't really have much to report, just thought it was about time I checked in. Been a pretty standard couple of weeks. I got done with my classes, and started some more. Same old, same old. I did try a new beer that I found to be quite satisfactory. It's a New Glarus beer called 'Nut Brown' on the outside of the box, but 'Fat Squirrel Ale' on the label of the actual bottle. As you might imagine, very nutty, wholesome tasting. Very good stuff, three slid down quite well last night. It's kind of your middle of the road ale, not real dark, but not a pale either. A beer like Sprecher pub ale, not the most interesting beer in the world, but a solid choice when you just want something to wash down your supper with. |
| 2005-05-11 13:45:22 CST - drunkness_of(3) | Well, wednesday of doom is over. Gotta polish off a project and take a test tomorrow. Then just 3 credits worth of speech and i'm all gradjiated.
I firmly believe that only when something feels right should it be done. There is absolutely no reason that something should feel forced. I bring this up because normally straight whiskey tastes like naseau to me. I suspect many people feel the same way, and I encourage them not to drink straight whiskey. For me there is only a brief window of time where I can consume pure grain alchohol without feeling like I'm going to throw up. The past twenty minutes have existed wholly and unquestionably within that window.
I think it is about time I turn on some family guy and take a little nap. |
| 2005-05-11 08:41:59 CST - drunkness_of(0) | | In about a half an hour I start what will be 3.5 hours of testing. I've got an orange and a bottle of bawls in my backpack to hopefully hold me through until 12:30. Why aren't there ever any tests on monday? I think i may have had one on friday once. Why the fuck don't we have a finals week? That was really nice, then you knew you wouldn't have a shit load of stuff due at once. Final projects would always be due the last week of classes. Then those three or four days to study were really handy. And then nice spaced out tests throughout the day. I guess though, we get done like a week earlier. I don't know that it's worth it, this shit can be kind of hard on the stress levels. |
| 2005-05-01 10:14:39 CST - drunkness_of(2) | | breakfast is the most important meal of the day |
| 2005-04-30 10:32:18 CST - drunkness_of(0) | I'm about ready to have a mental breakdown I think. It's all gone, all my data from the past 2 weeks of work. The last backup I ran was on the 13th. I have no idea what happened, i was in windows playing games for a day and a half, booted back into linux and everything is from like 2 months ago. The raid is out of sync, but both drives are ancient data. I don't know what i'm going to do, i don't think it's really humanly possible for me to just redo two weeks worth of work at this point. I've got things i needed to go ahead on this weekend to have any hope of graduating.
Ok, ok, gotta calm down a little, deep breaths. If there is any one thing i have learned in my life it's not to panic. The data has got to be somewhere, disks don't just randomly lose everything they've done in the past several months while maintaining perfect file system consistancy. What the hell happened then... |
| 2005-04-28 16:05:47 CST - drunkness_of(2) | | Went out and got a few beers in sloshkosh. Now I gotta write some damn paper about some shit :-(. Sitting in the lab, just basically not caring about a lot, waiting for my homework to do itself. |
| 2005-04-27 11:10:44 CST - drunkness_of(0) | Now that this last period of extreme rushing is over I feel it's my duty to report on the happenings of the past week. In many respects it sucked floppy wang, but in others it wasn't so bad.
Firstly, last saturday night/sunday morning I had basically an apocolyptic vision in a dream. It was pretty vivid, and more than a little disturbing. The populus had pretty much just spontaneously split itself into two factions, where one was like shooting people and protecting their towns, and the others were pretty much just going around and burning shit down. I was in a bar all night(funny) and came out and didn't know what was going on. I ended up on a country road not far from my house, cornered by fire. I had to ditch my car and run, but i found a radio somewhere. I was walking through a field toward my house listening to the news on the radio, watching all of the huge fires in the distance, when I woke up.
Now about my other nightmare. Last week wednesday I was informed I would have to do a presentation on my practicum the coming tuesday. I also had another large document and demonstration of my practicum due that day by an unfortunate coincidence. That was an extreme burden of work over the past several days, and I am only willing to recall it because I did manage to get everything done and in on time. My presentation went well I think, people seemed resonably impressed. The demo went well too, I found a bug, but i just stripped a little functionality out of the client to hide it, so it was ok. The hand-in for that part of the practicum was shoddy at best though. What can I say, only so many hours in the day you know?
Besides that I had another impending doom to look forward to. A chemistry test this morning, after all that other shit due yesterday and me not having even done the homework for the class, and having a concert to go to last night. That was very unpleasant, I would say the most unpleasant thing I have been asked to endure this semester. What a rush job, it's been basically a 5 day marathon of work. I doubt that I did well on that exam this morning, I would say my score is most probably between a 60 and 70 somewhere.
The good news though, lets polish all this whining up with something nice. Slipknot was an awesome show, as always. They've just generally got a lot of energy, lot of guys in the band and everything. I've seen them twice now, this one was better though, since they were the main act instead of at ozz-fest where there really is no 'main' act. The concert was great, my presentation went well, my practicum works and is on schedule, and I'm through one the two major crunch times left in my undergraduate study. Nothing left now but the wedensday of doom before friday the 13th, then just a 3 week speech class and some spit polish on the practicum, a cakewalk. |
| 2005-04-22 22:48:44 CST - drunkness_of(3) | | i tried to post to my blog using putty with lynx on filesystem instead of even localhost. It didn't work, I was pissed off. |
| 2005-04-21 09:21:56 CST - drunkness_of(0) | | I just had a 'holy-shit' moment, so I thought i should share. I jammed down a couple cups of strong coffee and started programming, I'm working on an assignment to take functional dependencys for database relations and determine of those functional depenencies are in boyce-codd normal form. I realize most of you have no idea what I am talking about, it happens. Anyway, i put kind of working comments in a function at first to just kind of walk myself through the logic, then go back and replace the comment lines with short bursts of code to do what the comment said i should do there. I got to a point in the program and realized that all of my comments were actually narrations from the point of view of a functional dependency. They would be things like "I can be considered bcnf if I am a trivial fd, so I should check myself for that first". Kind of freaked me out a little- |
| 2005-04-20 17:26:37 CST - drunkness_of(1) | Well, my programming job's time has passed. Not that this is a surprise or anything, it's been in the works for a month or so now, by my own choice. I think I kind of always felt like it was just a temporary job.
Anyway, the plan is to hammer down code for my practicum, apply for a bunch of jobs of various makes and models in the greater milwaukee area, and maybe do some part time grad-school if I can get that all worked out. All very exciting, or at the least more exciting than being in school for another year. |
| 2005-04-15 11:24:42 CST - drunkness_of(0) | | I just have absolutely no fucking motivation today. I actually walked out of 2 out of my three classes thus far, and I slept throught part of the other. Where did all my motivation go? |
| 2005-04-09 13:30:30 CST - drunkness_of(0) | | Last night was pretty cool, had some people over, did some drinkin. Just made a big ass fire and sat around drinking beers. I'm surprisingly not hung over today, I feel great actually. Must have been the guinness, the shit is like an energy shake with alchohol in it. |
| 2005-04-07 21:09:38 CST - drunkness_of(1) | | Today was reasonably dissapointing. I just couldn't really concentrate, sort of restless. It didn't help that it was a beautiful day outside, and i was trapped behind a window trying to force myself to work. By the time my mom got here with the beer I basically had the shakes. A couple bottles of guinness will even that right out for you though. |
| 2005-04-06 16:01:16 CST - drunkness_of(0) | | How do you waste those last two minutes at work that you don't really know what to do with? Post to your blog! Nothing really to report, I'm exaughsted and feeling a little ill in the greater stomach region, but that's been pretty standard lately. I'm glad I visited becca last weekend, turns out I very much needed the mana gathered there to get me through this week. |
| 2005-04-04 21:50:32 CST - drunkness_of(1) | Kick ass, Xopl has hooked me up again with a shiney new site over at www.danschwister.com.
As you may see if you're quick enough, there is nothing there, well, except for the pie. Funny thing is I don't even like pecan pie that much, I just like the image. Well, i'm getting lazy, so I'd better get to work and finish what needs to be done so I can go to sleep at a resonable hour- |
| 2005-04-02 14:22:33 CST - drunkness_of(2) | I bought a 6 of scotch-ale, pretty much just because it looked interesting. It's highly tolerable actually, goes bye the name of 'McEwan's Scotch Ale' brewed by 'Scottish Courage Ltd', so you can imagine why i was drawn to it. I mean, really, anything brewed by a company called scotish fucking courage has got to be worth trying.
Anyway, it's good, I like it a lot. Not good enough to unseat sprecher pub ale from it's place in my heart, but still good. Kind of caramelly, just a little bitter. Smooth for the drinking, and it packs a real punch at 8% alchohol. You'd never guess it by drinking though, it would pass for an american 5% imitation without much trouble. So if you're bored give it a shot, not at all the waste of money I was worried it might be. |
| 2005-03-27 10:39:15 CST - drunkness_of(0) | who tears. *quiet chuckle*
I got my newly aquired dual pII 300, which shall now be reffered to as 'flip-flop', all set up now. It took me approximately 10 hours or so, though my full attention obviously wasn't required for the whole time. Ppp configuration under linux is very different, and a quite a bit less intuitive, although also a little simpler in the end. Dhcpd, thankfully, is exactly the same on linux as it was on bsd, and is damn damn simple. Getting nat masquerading set up was a quite a bit easier in linux, just install iptables and add a rule or two, no tunnelling or extra kernel options or anything. Iptables is pretty nice all around, I haven't done any port forwarding for the game servers I sometimes run on my workstation, but I suspect it will be pretty easy. The only real problem I had was when I set the default policy for the Input chain to drop. I hadn't added the allow rules yet.... Had to dig out an old keyboard and monitor, log in and add an allow rule to take everything coming in from the lan. It's working well, forwarding everything, dropping all packets recieved un-asked-for from the outside network, including connection attempts and icmp. I've just got to add rules to forward the game server ports and ensure that the box is not altering my ttl for packets in the forward table. I know i'm not at much risk here on my dialup, but this machine is well equipped to handle broadband routing, so I want to make sure it is set up to follow me wherever I go this summer. I guess it doesn't so much matter if people know I have a router, but i'd rather they not. I like my network to look as much as possible like a single computer. |
| 2005-03-21 14:11:00 CST - drunkness_of(0) | well, my system did in fact stop being a bitch, and operated resonably well through the lan party last weekend. It crashed twice though, running dungeon siege for whatever reason.
I've been tired all day, slept during every one of my classes, i think i'm just not ready to be back from spring break, maybe i'll start working again around wednesdayish.
I got probationary acceptance to the graduate software engineering program at lacrosse, not bad, but i'm still waiting for a few more letters before i make up my mind. |
| 2005-03-16 13:19:35 CST - drunkness_of(2) | Due to a mind blowing amount of system instability over the past few days I haven't done anything on my practicum since before lunch yesterday. My video card crashes, my disks crash, my fucking bios loading screen freaked out - i'm damn lucky it let me in to reflash it's bitch ass. I dunno what the fuck i'm gonna do. I'm trying to rebuild my raid array again, but it's just not doing the trick, the drives are hammering away full bore but they aren't getting anywhere, i suspect I may have lost blocks. This fucking blows goats. On the plus side though I got my new keyboard today. First keyboard i ever bought actually, i've been using an ancient thing built in the late 80's from a 70's ibm spec involving springs, instead of the crappy rubber dome the new ones all seem to use. The one i bought is a nice caddy keyboard made very recently using a 70's ibm spec. The new one and old one look almost identical, both knock offs of the original ibm M series. The new one is heavier, really fucking heavy actually. The new one also has a ps2 port instead of AT. The new one also does not have a switch on the bottom of it to switch between AT and XT spec, so i'd better hope the old one lasts me or my 8088 is going to be out of input devices.
This raid rebuild better work, if i can't get some code done today i'm not going to be anywhere near where i wanted to be by the end of break. |
| 2005-03-14 17:26:11 CST - drunkness_of(0) | | There is a new(temporary) section on the site dealing with my practicum project. It is going to serve as my repository for any examples I feel I need for reference throughout the project, and also as a programming journal to keep track of changes and important decisions. You can expect things like html copies of the documents i hand in and possibly periodic revised uml documents, but these will come in the future. I need to concentrate on big hunks of coding this week, little web site updates will come in little chunks of free time. |
| 2005-03-12 22:13:44 CST - drunkness_of(0) | What a fucking day, damn. I'm really sick, so the plan was to play video games all afternoon. Well, my computer has been a little shady recently, and pretty much just gave me the bird today finally. So i was going to break down and re-install windows, no biggy. Well, about a half an hour later, when i had actually managed to get the floppy drive installed so i could get my raid drivers onto the install i got started. That actually went fine. Then though - to get back into linux. For some fucking reason gentoo creators think it's really funny to fuck with people. Like, for example, the install cd comes with a shit load of packages nobody gives a fuck about, you can download kde once you get installed right?, but they don't give you things like a bootloader. This is particularily stressfull when they also don't give you things like network drivers. When the also choose not to enable support for my floppy drive, it pretty much brings the hate from me.
So like 30 minutes i get the grub boot floppy all figured out and get back into linux. All this fucking around though has made me realize that my raid array is out of sync. See, they don't tell you which drive went down, they just tell you that you've only got 1 left. I picked the wrong one.
The only thing that has kept me halfway sane through all of this bullshit is that I got bored this morning and grabbed my practicum work onto my laptop to code in bed for a while, so at least I didn't lose that. Also the cdforge I have at work is at least a little more advanced than the one I was keeping here, so i didn't lose anything too serioius, just a bunch of gentoo updates . |
| 2005-03-11 18:42:52 CST - drunkness_of(0) | | I'm suprisingly sick. I felt fine as of this morning, but throughout the day it just kind of went down hill. I'm pretty well drugged up, but still running a pretty bad fever. My mind hurts. My mind and pretty much anything within 4 inches of my right eye - for whatever reason. On the plus side the combination of sinus medication and fever has made me actually quite loopy. |
| 2005-03-03 19:34:06 CST - drunkness_of(0) | Reptile had me convinced he was gone tonight. Reptile is my early 90's dx2 server. It's not much, but it's been dependable like I have no right to expect it to be - I've made several mistakes on it through the years that would have lead a lesser computer to its grave. I basically learned the fundamentals of everything I know on this thing, it's my pet. Despite it's age it is still my testing ground, running an antique version of mysql, perl, apache, etc.
Anyway, I did get it working, but for how long? Once the bios gives you a message like "HDD CONTROLLER FAILURE" and starts beeping at you like some sort of crowd control device, what can you really do? In my case, clean some dust off the ide controller card(that's right, ide controller card..isa, remember that?), reseat it and get some magic. I was planning to immediately back up the drives, but I'm not sure it would be usefull. I've got this thing set up so sweet, it makes me invisible. It doesn't return pings, it supplies no response to any ports under 1024, and only some over 1024 are forwarded to my workstation. It doesn't even touch the ttl in the packet. Its a ghost. But the configs I hacked out to do this stuff are useless, this software doesn't exist anymore. This FreeBSD in something like 4.1 betaish. That was like 4 years ago, I haven't been able to download compiled packages for years. So i don't really know what to do, keep my fingers crossed it makes it the rest of the semester anyway, then maybe give it a bit of well deserved rest. |
| 2005-03-02 22:15:33 CST - drunkness_of(4) | | Ohhhh, it's starting to hurt. A lot actually. The base of my spine feels like I'm enduring some type of pre-christ torture methods. I'm also sweating pretty badly. I sort of feel like i'm going to throw up, but I doubt it. That would be too easy. Fuck it though, i'm still going to finish this manhattan I prepared for myself. As i was telling Steve, my sister gave me some advice a long time ago that I really took to heart. She said, in a very serious tone, "tonight me doesn't know tomorrow me, tonight me says 'fuck tommorrow me'". This is actually what I consider to be the height of philosophy. Do you live for tonight or for tomorrow? I'm not going to argue with you either way, but I'd say my decision is resonably obvious. I choose tonight me, of course. FUCK tomorrow me, tomorrow me is just going to have to take the pain and figure shit out for himself. I'm not watching out for anyone but tonight me. Poor fucking bastard, that tomorrow me is gonna hate tonight me. God damn i'm glad i'm not him! |
| 2005-03-02 20:47:55 CST - drunkness_of(4) | | Ha ha ha! Pizon buddy, I took your advice. We've got the drunkometer in at least a transitional phase. The whole undertaking was performed at level 3-4, which I am impressed it took me so little time at this degree of resistance. I polished off the irish cream, and went back for some more. I tell you, that Jameson slides down pretty good in the appropriate mixer but it just doesn't feel the same in any whiskey/soda combinations as knob creek. Oh well, specialization is complication, so i'll have to build a bigger liquor cabinet. He he he....I gotta take a piss, fuck you guys. |
| 2005-03-01 09:48:50 CST - drunkness_of(0) | | I got my first phase of my practicum handed in today. Not bad, but it's going to be a decent slice of work. I'll probably have a section set up here for it within the next few days. I intend to purchase a new domain name within the next few weeks though. Make a seperation between work and personal, get some crap up where I can give professors the url... You know, something respectable like "www.meliketheboobies.com". |
| 2005-02-24 15:45:53 CST - drunkness_of(0) | | Some of the guys from work went and got some mexican with p33t. It was pretty good, but damn, that did some 'spring cleaning' if you know what i mean. Then I got drunk and played video games for the rest of the afternoon. |
| 2005-02-23 11:31:11 CST - drunkness_of(0) | I've got a few gripes to list today
1) To the bus driver that leaves the stop sign out while he drives around, shaking fists at those who pass him, you're a moron.
2) To the guy driving 55 on the highway, I may have expressed my emotions earlier, but just as a reminder, fuck you.
3) To the snack shop in halsey, get lids that fit your damn cups, i'm sick of scalding myself coffee on my way to class.
Ah well, class time...
Oh, and I saw beccas brother today, but didn't really have time to talk much. |
| 2005-02-21 14:30:18 CST - drunkness_of(0) | A few administration matters today.
1) I've realized that something is wrong with my post times. They are off a few hours, something in my mapping to CST must have gone awry. I'll fix it, someday...
2) Who the hell has been browsing my site in Konqueror?
3) How the fuck is the #1 search leading to my site 'Hooters'? Who the fuck browses low enough in the search ranking for 'Hooters' to get to my site? One desperate porn seaking mother fucker, that's who. Maybe a new index page with nothing but a full sized photograph of my penis is in order, that'd learn 'em. "Whack off to this hooters boy!"
Well, that should just about do it for administration issues, considering all blog program updates are on hold until I graduate.
oh yeah, I got my practicum signed off by the profs that needed to sign it today, so all systems are go for graduation at the end of spring interim, sometime in the single digits of June I think. Yay me. |
| 2005-02-20 07:02:29 CST - drunkness_of(0) | What the fuck I did to deserve the dreams I had last night I have no idea. At least I slept I suppose, but I feel physically ill now. Maybe the physical illness prompted the dreams in the first place though, instead of the other way around.
My first dream was apparently me dreaming through a viagra commercial of some sort. Except it was a 'real' viagra commercial, where this guy was like really pretty fat, and he went back and got some more cake before he and his wife left this party, presumably to go screw. At least I didn't have to dream that part. Anyway, I guess that's not so disgusting, but wierd anyway.
The second dream I remember from last night sickened me, and led to my waking. I was for some reason boiling disgusting fat. Fat with like chunks of crunchems and munchems in it. Fleshy fat, with disgusting chunks. I was boiling it anyway, scooping it into the pan one disgusting dollop at a time. Maybe I was making soap, maybe I was making funnel cakes..who knows. Anyway, I was going along, scoop after scoop, until eventually I just put a scoop in my mouth apparently, then another. Then, realizing what I'd done I started to full out heave, and like, rub my tounge on my shirt and stuff. Then I was awake, feeling really quite unpleasant, and badly in need of a piece of candy, which, having posted, I shall now go fetch. |
| 2005-02-17 08:31:58 CST - drunkness_of(0) | | Well, my sleeping season came a little late this year, but it's still very welcome. I've been in full hibernation mode since I saw becca this weekend, sleeping around 8.5ish hours. I've even been able to get up and then lay back in bed and fall asleep for my dense-dreaming period. The dream I had this morning was a little unpleasant, I don't remember much of it anymore, but the feeling of it reminded me somehow of the world in the Dune novels. Oh how I love thursdays, nothing but a few hours of work, then home for lazing and homework. Nice long quiet day. |
| 2005-02-11 16:10:18 CST - drunkness_of(0) | That's what we in the business call 'going off early'. I must have bumbed tab before i hit enter, but what the fuck...fuckity fuck fuck. it's all good.
I'm tired. I can't fucking sleep. One day this week I woke up, thinking very much that it was time for me to get up and take a shower, but when I got to the kitchen I saw that it was 11 o'clock at night, apporoximately one hour after I had went to bed. That makes for one god fucking damned long ass motherfucker of a night, let me tell you. So if you saw me in the last week and I looked like the walking dead carrying a gallon of coffee around with me you know why.
I helped my dad take down the windmill in our yard yesterday. I can't remember having a rush like that for quite some time. The thing was so shoddy and falling apart that it was leaning on the garage that was close by. My job was to climb to the very top of the thing and tie a rope to it so we could pull it off the garage and to the other direction. The first rope was defective and started to tear - I had to climb up again to tie on another rope. I'm glad I did though, I was scared for some reason the first time, dangling up there, around 3-4 stories up on a rusty steel object that twisted and groaned with my every movement. But, for whatever reason, the second time I didn't really care, maybe it's because I knew already that the structure could possibly support my weight under the right circumstances.
Still, when that thing came down and the cast iron mechanism at the top shattered into a million tiny pieces, it was all worth it easily.
BTW, I'm back to the knob creek, I've tried many a whiskey but for the price and smoothness of knob creek and sun drop I just can't pass it up, it makes a fair manhattan too... |
| 2005-01-30 15:54:57 CST - drunkness_of(0) | | Wow, i really got a lot of cool shit done these past few days. I was doing really nothing at work, like one bug to fix per day, just mind numbing boredom. So i took the later part of the week off to have some fun. I started working on making a livecd to suit my needs. Then I went skiing all day thursday, snowmobiling all day friday. That was sweet as hell, great weather, really fantastic snow too. Got my livecd finally worked out today. I put together a cd with a seperate kernel and filesystem for x86 and x86_64, they've both got panda for linux antivirus client and partimage, a program for making and restoring file system images, on both file systems. Not to mention all the standard linux utilities. It's gonna make the job of doing maitinence on the 10 or so computer I am responsible for about a million times easier. I'm gonna put images of fresh installs with word and acrobat and everything on bootable dvds just like the imaging client one, so I should be able to boot the dvd and restore the image from the livecd os. The last time I did something so all around groovy was the cgi page that dialed my isp for all the computer in the house. Now that i've mastered the livecd I sense many great possibilities in the future. |
| 2005-01-14 09:25:59 CST - drunkness_of(0) | | Wow, I slept last night. I've been having some insomnia lately. Mostly I've been sleeping every night, but around 4.5-5.5 hours. In the last two weeks I think my best was 6.5. I stay in bed longer when I'm sleeping with becca though, she's warm and comfy. Anyway, I slept about 9.5 last night, and I dreamt, which is fairly unusual for me to dream and remember them. One dream was really funny, I completely ruined a cheesy show at a theater of sorts. There were all these people dancing and stuff, it was wicked gay. Anyway, I snuck in back stage and hooked up their big screen that was just showing like blinking lights and shit, one of those big concert screens they have above stages sometimes, Ozzy does this all the time. Anyway, I hooked it up to a tv somehow and was just flipping channels, like I'd watch cartoons for a while then flip through some white channels and watch the news or something. The whole show stopped and everything, people were getting pissed so I slipped out the back and drove off, just as some cops were showing up. The other two I remember were of a more personal and/or disturbing nature, and I won't go into them just now. It was good though, I woke up feeling better than I have in many days. I also woke up 10 minutes before I had to leave for work, but I made it. |
| 2005-01-08 14:37:57 CST - drunkness_of(0) | I had guinness this weekend for the first time ever. I bought a 6 back of bottles from a grocer specializing in import and specialty foods here in milwaukee. They have the widest selection of micro-brews I have ever seen, but i've been a little too cowardly to spend my oh-so-dear money on a possible failure thus far to try them.
Anyway, guinness. This is one of the strangest drinks I have encountered recently. It's not so much the flavor that is peculiar, the flavor itself is actually my least favorite of the experience. It is the texture that really brings guinness to life. It's not so much carbonated, but it surely isn't flat. It sort of melts away in your mouth, it's hard to describe. It's very light in texture, but rich as any beer in taste. Sort of like having a rich tasting chocolate shake that is thinner than water. It's very peculiar, and the only words I could summon upon my first tasting were these: "highly drinkable". The inital drink feels like water, refreshing, invigorating even, but the richness of the dark beer flavor comes in stronger later on, slightly bitter but not to a fault, followed by a very light after-taste that I have no words to properly describe. It is not really a taste inspired by chocolate or coffee as some beers are, it is a taste though that I have associated with other dark beers, somewhat bitter, complex and changing.
It's not immediately my favorite beer, i enjoy beers that evoke different recognizeable flavors throughout the progression of the drink. For example, a beer that starts off kind of like slightly burnt coffee, comes in later with a dark chocolate, and finishes with a rich flavor of dark beer. I appreciate the brewers care for detail in recreating these flavors for me, their care and attention to detail require me to appreciate my drink with more awareness, where an american beer generally requires only the attention needed to lift glass to mouth. Though guinness is slightly less complex than the beers I enjoy most it is still a fully enjoyable drink, and I sincerely appreciate all the effort put forth to craft the drink I see before me. It has given me much to contemplate in what my ideal brew would be. |
| 2005-01-03 11:51:31 CST - drunkness_of(0) | | yes, becca did get a tickling, but she would have anyway. I'm tired, but not too bad, 6 hours of sleep is a little slim for me this time of year. I've had plenty of coffee though, so it's alright. Things are looking ok though for interim so far. Couple little projects to work on in the next few days. I really hope my interim class is ok, I've got a lot of hope for it. Becca's brother beau was telling me that one of the male history teachers that taunt in winterim did a pretty laid back class that didn't require books to be purchased. And this is winterim history with a male teacher, so i'm keeping my fingers crossed. |
| 2005-01-02 21:12:05 CST - drunkness_of(0) | | This was a pretty decent break. I took a week off and didn't do a damn thing. Just ate, played video games, attended various family gatherings. Good times, becca came home for the week to spend some time with me, that was really nice. Tomorrow is back to work though, and an interim class. Becca is nagging me about my typing, it will cost her a tickling. She is saying she's not nagging me, but she is. That's the freeway to tickle town it is. I've got some work to do I guess, more later maybe |
| 2004-12-16 21:30:39 CST - drunkness_of(0) | | Wow, interesting night. I should be studying, but i'm so god damned bored, and just one more day left. Ironically it's the class i'm most likely to fail that has it's test tomorrow, fucking pricks. Why give me the test i'm gonna fail when i'm already about to fuckin hulk out and start fuckin shit up. So, whatever, i got plowed and found out that a google search for "get plowed" wasn't really giving me what I wanted. Apparently that means something else to people of differing sexual opinions, however, as I love the pussy I did not know this. Kinda ruined my day for a minute there, but whatever, I don't understand most people so that leaves homosexual perverts in the majority on this one. After that I decided to buckle down, grabbed a couple shots of tequila and spent some time at GunBroker as well as RoyalMile. Ohh, Ohhh, teacher, I know what I wanna be when I grow up.... Seriously though, that place as the raging bull .454 and the russian made dragunov svd with factory scope and bipod that I've always wanted. Also a wide assortment of single malts can be hade at the former of my links. Hmmm, I'm starting to drift back into single vision, that can only mean i've got work to do. |
| 2004-12-15 16:56:53 CST - drunkness_of(0) | | I'm fuckin sick of finals. I hate em, wanna kick em in the balls. I guess i'm probably doing pretty fair in the shit i took today, it's stats i'm really worried about. I just don't really care about it, and never really studied much. It's a shitty class anyway though, fuckin guy still never gave me back my second test, so no clue what i'm getting. I'm just keeping my fingers crossed for a D. |
| 2004-12-05 09:29:46 CST - drunkness_of(0) | |
Huh, my dad was telling me about a funny occurance a few weeks ago. Apparently i was dead drunk in the bathroom passed out and he stepped over me, took a shit, and left without waking me up. Funny thing is i don't remember when that would have been. Maybe that was the 'booze' post for which I can recollect nothing of the time or circumstances that surrounded the post. I don't really think i'm an alchoholic, but i suppose if i forget a decent cross-section of the times I get plowed I wouldn't really know, would I? |
| 2004-12-01 22:01:23 CST - drunkness_of(0) | This is just basically a side note, a piece of information you may not have gotten a hold of yet, but i suspect you have. I day dream a lot, i would say that my day dreams are about a billion times more real than real life. Its sort of like tripping out all the time, which has made the few times I have actually had occassion to trip out just that much more unusual. The interesting thing is that it's sort of like weight training for my mind, after a good trip I actually feel normal for like a month, I can actually pay attention and cope with real world situations.
I had a day dream today, something I'm not going to go into just now, but it was pretty rough, a sleeping dream I'd had a long time ago. For those of you who've known me for some time, it had something to do with fermeldahide(sp?). Fucking disturbing shit, that is.
I broke into some absinthe tonight. I would say it's worth trying, but I have no wish to keep drinking it. Anise is a great flavor, but not one you can really chug. It's a fine drink for a couple drinks now and then, but it's not worth the money, and it's certainly not going to be replacing whiskey any time soon.
Then again, maybe this is just shitty absinthe, more on that some other time perhaps. |
| 2004-11-17 18:51:44 CST - drunkness_of(0) | | Well, this sucks balls. I'm sick, but not the kind of sick I usually am. Usually when I get sick I'm down for the count, generally end up getting some anti-biotics at some point to avoid me dying. This is not like that at all. I'm just a little sick, which is so much more annoying. At least when you've got a respectable disease like strep or pnemonia or something you get to lay around at home. I don't really mind being powerfully sick, I think of it as an opportunity to watch movies, play video games, and spend all day under the effects of drugs that basically equate to tranquilizers. Take off work, school, just chill out and take it easy for a few days. None of that, I think I may have actually gotten an average every day cold. I feel like hell, but not bad enough to stop doing stuff. This sucks balls, i pity people who get colds. |
| 2004-11-07 00:35:07 CST - drunkness_of(0) | | boooze. i love booze, i don't care about anything but booze. that's why, that's it. booze! |
| 2004-11-05 20:40:13 CST - drunkness_of(0) | Well, I suppose you could say I'm drunk, legally anyway. I wouldn't go that far personally, I'd say I was intoxicated. There is a fine line there I know, but I've been drunk before, and this isn't really what it felt like. I've got the slurred speech, the slight stumble, vision more blurry than usuaal. The untrained eye would immediately classify me as drunk. I'm not though. Thinking far too clearly yet, which I'm fine with. Thinking is cool, just that sometimes I need a vacation from it, not like today, vacation is a word I reserve for things like my wild turkey binge. Today is more of a celebration, more happy, less not here at all. That's cool though, sometimes anyway, I can get into happy as long as it's in very limited quantites.
I went out drinking in shicton, got some fish. It was good, quite good actually. I met up with an old friend I hadn't seen in almost 5 years. Turns out the bar I go to almost religiosly is also one of his/her favorite places, just never met them their before. They were married several years ago, but I had to work or something and couldn't make it. Didn't matter, it was a stoner fest anyway, which I'm not all that concerned about missing. You may like weed, and on some level I do too, but I'll tell you, after you see someone look for their lighter for almost a half hour only to find in their pocket for the third or fourth time, it gets old. Especially if it's you that's doing the looking. We're all too smart for that, that's what booze is for. You can be drunk as they come and still manage to be straight in 12-18 hours. You can be high as they come and FEEL like you are straight in 1-3 hours, but you're not. Trust me, I've been there, you're not, no matter how much you think you are, you're still not.
I've got more to say, but I feel like this blog is long enough. Oh shit, right, I almost forgot, this is just for Tim: "suspection". There, happy? Good. |
| 2004-10-31 15:54:58 CST - drunkness_of(0) | | I fucking love haloween, favorite holiday ever. Not that I went out and did anything today really, just doing homework and hanging out with becca. But haloween seems like motivation like no other to go out and do something crazy. Well, I didn't do anything interesting yet, but I did make a point of buying an absurd amount of alchohol while we were at the grocery store, so something may happen yet. One never does know, does one? |
| 2004-10-26 05:42:39 CST - drunkness_of(0) | | What a long and horrible monday this has been. I've basically been driving around and working for 25 hours now without sleep. The drive home was interesting. If that wasn't bad enough nobody is here this week to make a fire so it was about 50 when i got here, way too damn cold to sleep decent. So I'm basically sitting here, just fucking utterly exausted, just fucking spent, waiting for the house to heat up to an acceptable level so I can finally catch two or three hours of sleep so i can be to work a few hours late anyway. FUCK! I just wanna curse like a sailor until I run out of breath and start coughing - but i'm not going to, that's what they want me to do. At least the phone company fixed my damn phone, i was really starting to miss my dialup. |
| 2004-10-12 22:44:06 CST - drunkness_of(0) | | quoth me: "I AM FUELED BY CAFFINE AND HATRED, I AM UNSTOPABLER" - good times |
| 2004-10-07 08:52:07 CST - drunkness_of(0) | | I feel certain that I'm getting somewhere which is, in itself, impossible. Sure signs that my mental condition is deteriorating. I badly need a vacation from myself. Can you say "COSMIC PROJECTILE VOMIT BENDER"? I knew you could. I may even require stronger rearrangement, but such adjustments can take time to arrange. Maybe if i just stop eating meat and working out I'll drop back into a lull of lazy-bastardism that I could work with. |
| 2004-10-06 16:47:16 CST - drunkness_of(0) | | I...well, they - or, hmmm. Uhhh, well, shit, nevermind. Some things are just too complicated for speech i guess. Oh well i guess, shit happens. More later maybe, if I gather my thoughts. |
| 2004-09-28 11:50:59 CST - drunkness_of(0) | | This was an interesting weekend. Went down to a cider pressing by a micro-brewing group. They had some really fucking good shit to drink at that place, wow. Well, that and obviously my drunken wild turkey rampage. I hate that I always end up driving drunk. I just have a tendancy of getting absolutely blasted just about anywhere at any time, then just as I am peaking and ready to call it a night i think to myself "fucking christ, i don't actually want to SLEEP in this fucking place". So what can you do, open the window, grab a soda, and make your car's rev limiter earn its keep. I'm gonna die someday. I suppose through my own stupidity is more acceptable than just by chance, I'd like to think I control my own life to some degree anyway. fuckem, fuckit - i don't fucking care |
| 2004-09-25 09:35:16 CST - drunkness_of(0) | | There are several ways I could begin this post. Oh god, I'm gonna die. I wake up sometimes in strange places, like the floor in front of my bathroom door. I was thinking just then, absolutely in pain. Breathing in the dense CHOKING FUCKING SMELL of human sweat, cigar smoke, vomit, and wild turkey. There, at my most wretched, completely defeated, not even hung over, so drunk that the whole place is still spinning like a god damned merry-go-round. At that very instant I realized that there are people out there who have never had this experience. There actually, somewhere - not here, exist people who have never taken in the delightful curry for the senses that i have just enjoyed. There actually are full grown human beings who have no clue what i'm talking about - no idea of the rich satisfying taste in your mouth at such moments. No fucking clue. That's so sad. How could you even have any idea being in that situation. I say we need to promote more alchohol awareness programs, they must be given the chance to see. |
| 2004-09-19 14:00:22 CST - drunkness_of(0) | | Wow, my extreme drunken blogging is always of great intrest to me when i am sober. The drunkened mind is an interesting place. None of that today though, hanging out with becca, doing homework etc. I guess that's really it, nothing interesting at all going on here the past few days. The cut above my eye from when I fell down drunk has healed, that's news I suppose. You wanna see some really interesting shit eat a few pounds of skittles and wait a couple hours, cause you ain't gonna find it here..... |
| 2004-09-10 23:17:06 CST - drunkness_of(0) | | holy ass fucking mother of jesus i'm drunk. why is it that i always get blasted beyond help when my dad and/or sister ar invlved. shut up, i know i slur type when i'm drunkened by liquors, i could still beat your ass to a pulp, possibly even more than usual, but likely much much less, FUCK IT, FUCK IT RIGHT IN THE ASS HOLE!!! or, ummmmm, yeah, whatever, fuck, i'm so fucking blitzed, i guess that's all i really had to report on, i don't have any great insight at 11:14 fucking hammered out of my mind, well, manhattans rock, and so does beer, and i will pwn anybody that says different, fucking noobs, fuck the fucking noobs right up the ass, that's what freshman are for, or, fuck, fuck it, i don't use the backspace key on this shit ever, so let it slide, that's the only reason someon buys yeahfuckit.com, to let ths shit totally and completely slide, well, let me just say this, i am fucking drunk, and i would basically fucking no, nevermind, i think i need to take a shit, bye |
| 2004-09-10 08:28:42 CST - drunkness_of(0) | | well, classes are started. seem ok for the most part i suppose. i have a wide variety of crappy teachers including a neo-nazi-esque jackass and an austrailian guy who sweats a lot and cannot manage to stop rubbing his chest and nipples during class. Whatever i guess - it's important to maintain a neutral view of one's professors as they are ultimately in charge of your grade as well as how much you will learn. I generally tend to like professors that keep the tantrums and nipple rubbing to a minimum, at least on the first day, but the student cannot afford to be picky about these things. in other news...nah, fuck it, that's all for now- |
| 2004-09-01 16:31:20 CST - drunkness_of(0) | | Zach gave me a little suggestion for my thumbnail code, so there it is zachyboy, your float left page divs resize my pictures page properly. Sweet sweet mojo. bye! |
| 2004-08-30 13:26:00 CST - drunkness_of(0) | | Ok, i got those scripts put up on the tutorials page if anyone is interested. Boobs. Boobs.Boobs. |
| 2004-08-30 11:38:24 CST - drunkness_of(0) | | Well, with a fine start from Zach I got my pictures up online in a much nicer form than I had at my last attempt. Zach's thumbnail generation code was slightly altered, but the picture viewing code was heavily reworked for rich snazziness. I'll probably post them both on the tutorials sometime at a later date, as they are really decent scripts. So that's that, pictures for the viewing. |
| 2004-08-23 14:15:40 CST - drunkness_of(0) | | hi. you may notice a new menu link, pictures. This is not yet fully functional, but it's getting there pretty quick. If somebody has a quick clean way to generate some thumbnails I'll take that into consideration, until then it will be pretty much broadband only. My vacation pics are easily viewable anyway, in case you're wondering where I've spent my week. |
| 2004-08-23 08:51:16 CST - drunkness_of(0) | | Welly welly welly well. Canada was good. Sort of. I was really quite sick most of the time, producing homemade chocolate soft-serve asscream by the pint or gallon. I'm still feeling a bit under the weather. That's ok though I guess, it was still fun.
As if the 16 hour car ride back from canada on friday wasn't enough I had to drive all this weekend as well. On saturday I drove around a giant van full of drunken women. I know, normally that would be some sort of heaven, but these girls were my sister and her friends. One of them is getting married so there was a bachelorette party going on and I was the driver. Not too bad though, made a couple bucks just driving them from bar to bar. Then last night I had to drive becca home to milwaukee with a car load of walmart wares. Finally drove to work this morning from milwuakee and that should be my major driving for a few days until I go down on thursday to bring the wee one to the airport friday morning.
God, so much driving. Oh well, i haven't reached for the parking brake at my desk yet so I think i'm still ok.
More later, I should do a little work and then toy with my pictures from vacation. |
| 2004-08-12 19:26:27 CST - drunkness_of(0) | | well, i got the gre all taken care of. 760 math 560 verbal. not too shabby, ought to do the trick. I'm off to canada for a week of fishing tomorrow morning. That's always a blast, plenty of fish and sun and beer always does me good. I suppose a week without a computer probably does me better. Anywho - should let the wee one check her wee email and get down to some serious doom playing for a few hours |
| 2004-08-09 08:04:01 CST - drunkness_of(0) | | Well, i got becca all relocated. It went pretty smoothly actually and, given past experiences of moving becca, i had good reason to believe that it would not. No troubles at all outside of asshole drivers dropping hay bails and/or attempting to hit me with their vehicles. Minneapolis to Milwaukee in one 3 day weekend, not bad, not bad at all. Even though all went pretty smoothly I am very tired. It was a lot of work getting all that crap relocated and that much driving is draining in itself. The worst part though is that we could not manage to procure a mattress and bed spring in time and had to sleep on the floor. That was kind of crappy, i think i got a few hours of sleep though. We did manage to order a bed, but it takes sears several days to deliver such things. Ah well, better quit the whining and get to work. |
| 2004-08-05 13:38:51 CST - drunkness_of(0) | | m'kay, looks like it's all done. That was actually exceedingly easy to transfer everything, even the database was wicked slick to deal with. Thanks to zach again for the space here on such short notice. I did a chmod 744 in the tutorial cgi-bin so some stuff isn't gonna work. I 755'd some things i recognized like printenv.pl and shit like that, but everything else will be out of commision until i get a chance to look over what all i've got in there. Ok, I suppose now that that is all taken care of I should probably get back to work. Nah, fuck it, i'll make some tea and read /. first ;-) |
| 2004-08-05 13:17:39 CST - drunkness_of(0) | | Well, avahost shafted me big time. Oh well, this hosting is way better anyway. Fuck them, fuck them up their stupid asses. More later - still fixing shit. |
| 2004-07-22 13:54:25 CST - drunkness_of(0) | | I'm getting doneish on another project at work. Studying for the gre. I know I should be happy, but every time I check my bank account balance I can't help but thinking I've got enough to just throw my shit in my car and head for parts unknown never to return. Is that normal? Should I just ignore it and keep working on my reports? |
| 2004-07-16 10:47:37 CST - drunkness_of(0) | | I like boobs. I also like manhattans. It's a good combo, tends to work out in the end is what i'm saying. I've been working, not sleeping a lot again. Not much work on the UT mod, turns out to be low on my priority list right now. I've been working on interfacing the parallel port, this weekend I am going to build some relays and probably start interfacing some little motors. Wicked easy shit once you get rolling. Remember folks, transistors are our friends. I did some assembly programming for that little project there. Other than that, video games and gre studying, sweet sweet video games.... |
| 2004-07-07 10:38:56 CST - drunkness_of(0) | | Ahhhhh, my heart is finally dropping to a sub-hummingbird rate. I handed in my 22 page report last night and did my little presentation. It went well I think, though for the paper i believe I may have mis-referenced a few things. MLA format is basically the most complicated thing I've ever seen, there are like 16,000 specific cases of how to cite certain things but yet I can never seem to find one that suits the thing I'm trying to cite. Mmmmm, FUCKIT. If I wasn't meant to make half assed blind guesses this wouldn't be college. I can't wait to get on to my real summer vacation. Just working 40 hours a week, doing a little programming for the UT mod, and studying for the GMAT. Ahhhh, vacation. |
| 2004-07-01 19:07:46 CST - drunkness_of(0) | | Mmmmm, no class tonight. I could work on my five page paper that needs to be done on tuesday. I could also hug bare powerlines, but I'm not going to. No, i believe I will play some UT and forget about said paper and presentation. Fuck them, Fuck them right up their stupid asses. |
| 2004-06-22 21:51:46 CST - drunkness_of(0) | | Well, here I am, sitting in the lab, watching people bicker about stuff i don't care about. I'd say this really sums up my college experience thus far. |
| 2004-06-17 16:44:24 CST - drunkness_of(0) | | After I had some good tea and something to eat FINALLY i started to feel ok. I decided today would be a good day to do some updates on the tutorials. I added a dynamic pdf generation program to the perl side that i feel is pretty slick. I also added bunyan, a perl log parsing program that is a little big for digestion by humans but uses a lot of cool perly sorts of things in it. |
| 2004-06-17 12:43:50 CST - drunkness_of(0) | | I'm so tired. So mother-fucking tired. I have no time to even play a quick round of ut much less rise of nations. My sister has been trying to get a through to me for days, apparently her computer is broken. Fool, my computer hasn't been on since sunday, looking at hers is an impossibility. I think I'm going to go out and get a gallon of coffee for lunch today. I can't wait for tomorrow, no class and going to see becca after work. Promises to be a weekend full of food and sleep. |
| 2004-06-03 23:30:07 CST - drunkness_of(0) | | well, that's that, one year older. basically just take who i was last year, increment my level of self loathing and my blood alchohol by a few points and you've got me this year. As i take in more and more expensive liquors in greater and greater bulk i begin to notice that there is something unsatisfying about the whole process. I think maybe i should invest in a larger and shinier shot glass. One thing i have always found comforting in these situations is the knowledge that my life is absolutely meaningless. However bad i fuck up or whatever i waste my life doing it doesn't matter in the grand scheme of things, not really. So what the fuck, might as well kick back and have another- |
| 2004-05-28 14:48:57 CST - drunkness_of(0) | | I'm hanging out with becca, she is short and cute. |
| 2004-05-25 18:41:25 CST - drunkness_of(0) | | ok, the linkinator is up there, and in working order, although it needs new colors bad - |
| 2004-05-25 17:46:04 CST - drunkness_of(0) | | ok, so maybe it doesn't look like i changed the site, but i did bitch SO SHUT YOUR FUCKING FILTHY MOUTH. No, j/k, that's a lie, i didn't update shit, well, one thing, can you guess what it was? Linkenator is doneish, i've just got to plug it into a page and throw some mother fucking links up there, define a few tiles to mix in there, sit back and watch the links randomate, maybe i'll do that yet today when i get back to linux. I had to boot windows, they gave me a project at work that requires fox-motherfucking-pro. motherfucking motherfuckers, always fucking mothers. |
| 2004-05-24 10:41:29 CST - drunkness_of(0) | | ok, today is "work on your fucking site" day. The bastards at work wont give me anything to do, so fucking bored...so fucking bored, id kill a puppy to pass the time. |
| 2004-05-11 11:34:17 CST - drunkness_of(0) | | holy fucking shit balls. Im so motherfucking bored. I got my classes done and i just got nothing but time suddenly. I hacked gentoo onto my amd64, patched some nforce code to get it to work, just basically spent 2 or 3 days on that. Now im picking up a project with some guys from madison, ut2k4 mod work, should be fun. Hopefull y i will finally have some fuckin time to update this site now, get my linkonator in a final state of operation. Ive also got a few little side projects in mind for the next few weeks, not the least of which will be some graphical work finally, my stuff all looks like fucking shit. SKIN ME, it screams. Ill probably crash out in about two weeks and give up on all this shit, but for now, i cant sleep, so i must work. |
| 2004-04-08 13:44:00 CST - drunkness_of(0) | | you might not be able to tell by that last post, but i am actually not on drugs. I have been buying a lot of stuff lately. New computer, new music, got my archos jukebox back yesterday, it works...sort of, but i will never buy another archos product, that is for sure. Well, i should go buy my mp3 audio book for listening to in my car - mmmmmmm, broooookkkkkkkeeeee |
| 2004-04-08 13:38:38 CST - drunkness_of(0) | | this post is transparent search phraseology. bush breasts sex ass tits iraq britney spears ebay ipod cunt whores investigation deaths abortion christian rights ass sex panties polotics war drugs drugs drugs drugs drugs drugs drugs drugs drugs drugs drugs
i really like drugs---- |
| 2004-03-30 10:39:35 CST - drunkness_of(0) | | well, i havent posted in a while, or done any coding for here. Im just so damned busy. I built a new computer, that takes a lot of time. bios updates and drivers and dicking around aplenty. Its nice though : athlon 64 3200, sata raid with 2 7200 rpm 80 gigs in raid 1, lite-on dvd burner, gig of 3700 ram for ocing, just ordered my evga 5900 se and a pci slot fan cause that shit is HOT, shuttle sn85g4 cube case warms up inside, especially the power supply. If anybody gets this in a search, yes, i got raid working, email me if you need to know how - dontfuckingcare at yeahfuckit dot com. |
| 2004-03-21 18:21:52 CST - drunkness_of(0) | | well, break is over. I got to do most of what i wanted to do. I saw thebecca, she is short and cute, as always. I had some capn n cokes and a few grain belts with xopl. That was pretty cool. Got to hang out for a little bit with john at the tatoo shop in hudson too. That was cool, got some good asian food. I didnt get to hang out with pat at all, but oh well i guess, I can only do so much, and most of it will be hanging out with the becca. I installed lunar linux on my laptop over break, its cool, i like it, wicked fast. Well, time to do all that homework I kept putting off all week.... |
| 2004-03-11 10:47:11 CST - drunkness_of(0) | | I have been pretty busy, but I dont think i will have to go to school tomorrow, which means i can head out to minneapolis to hang out with the little lady and probably party with xopl. Or, you know, i could sit home and cry myself to sleep every day for ten days straight, its all good, long as im not at school or work. |
| 2004-03-08 08:36:37 CST - drunkness_of(0) | | well, i didnt do a fucking thing this weekend. i suppose maybe if you consider sleeping and just dicking around to be doing stuff, then i did a lot of shit. didnt even fix this dumb script to allow for single quotes yet, trips up the sql server otherwise, oh well, maybe over break. i know i wont be doing much of anything this week, since i got a damn pool of shit to get done for school and work. |
| 2004-03-04 23:25:01 CST - drunkness_of(0) | | Ok, i got the stupid perl script to post new submissions done today. I say stupid because it took me rather long to do, really weird errors. I entered stuff in with one editor and it wouldnt work, another editor and it did, same text. Whatever, im trying not to think about it for the sake of my overall happiness. At any rate, this is a post from it, so it cant be all bad, also I pruned the menu down to shit thats actually there, since my links dont look like links shit thats not linked yet can be rather confusing, cant it, yes, it can. There is a big conference going on where i work the next few days, this means free soda and brownies for me. I like brownies. |
| 2004-03-02 22:06:52 CST - drunkness_of(0) | | ok, that was the sub-blog entry from yesterday, today I really do have a blog. i got the little php code written up half assed acceptably tonight, the php to show the blog entries. the html form and corresponding perl script used to add entries in the future is still vapor, maybe tomorrow. i'd never used mysql before, little bit different than ms sql server, but not really so much. mostly my foot dragging is due to laziness, even though i had no homework and played no video games tonight i was still unable to get anything done. well, like the shit says, fuck it. |
| 2004-03-02 21:57:26 CST - drunkness_of(0) | | ok, i'm still kind of working on shit here, i've been a little busy with some midterms and
some programming languages homework. The blog db is created and tested out, but the
front-end scripts to make use of it are yet to be written, I'm pretty sure I'm going to do
my entry addition page in perl, but I think I'm going to use php for displaying the entries
on the main page here. I've got a handy username field too, just in case thebecca or
someone else wants to have a little blog here, we can sort out who's entries go where without
troubling ourselves to make another table. I'm not going to use ANY stored procedures,
because i'm fucking sick of writing sql at work all day and select * will work just
fucking fine. Now, i'm gonna go hit the whiskey and get some sleep. |
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